Not that I think anyone has been checking everyday to see if I have posted...
... but on the off chance that you have, I apologize for my absence. Graduate school keeps me fairly busy with coursework, and the rest of the time I am either participating in, leading, or attending ensemble rehearsals and performances. Busy, busy, busy.
The weather has definitely changed over the last few days; we went from 70-80 degree weather to low 50s, and I had to bring out the scarves and woolen socks. If we had a fall, it's pretty much over now and well on the way to winter. As much as I love snow, I wish it didn't come with cold weather. I hate chilly bones. :(
On a more positive note, life is rolling along as it should be. I'm mostly keeping up with the coursework in my classes, and I don't spend too much time alone to think about being lonely. I know the big guy upstairs is looking over me, and I find comfort in knowing that His plan is greater than mine, so I need not be so disappointed when things don't turn out the way I want them to.
I started teaching voice lessons this semester, and I have learned so much about how to teach voice techniques and health, and also understand my own vocal strengths and weaknesses. As a teacher, you should never stop learning, and I think this is one of the first semesters in a long time where I find myself engaged and actively learning- not just listening and regurgitating for a test- tools that are going to influence my teaching style for years to come.
I have discovered so much about myself and what I would really love as a future career if I stay in the education field (I still desire a year or two in performance). I would love to be a choral music teacher either at the elementary or high school level, and also be an assistant band director or color guard instructor. I can't imagine my life without band and choir simultaneously, so this seems so logical. With my Master's in Vocal Pedagogy, I will also be able to make money outside of school teaching voice lessons (when I have the time, right?).
Right now I'm going to try to think less about marriage and starting a family. It is something that I want more than almost anything, but what I need is a balanced partnership. I haven't had a relationship possibly ever where the guy has wanted to take care of and provide for me as much as I have for him. I'm not saying I need boxes of chocolates, diamonds, and roses, but I do need gestures showing compassion and appreciation.
I am all about the other person; if he loves a certain sport or activity, I learn more about it and get myself involved in either learning to play/participate or being a spectator. I listen to his favorite kinds of music. I wear his favorite color more often. I learn to cook some of his favorite dishes.
Why, you might ask? Because he is important to me. No, I'm not going to pretend I like screamo-heavy metal, but I will learn to appreciate the vocal techniques that go into it, and possibly the musical intricacy (doubtful, but I would consider it). I don't want to change who I am, but I am willing to try new things and see if I like them, too.
On the same note, I would love it if the male showed the same kind of interest in me as I do in him, like in terms of my activities and enjoyments. I don't want a groupie, but some support in things that are important to me are welcomed and appreciated.
There are so many tangents I'm trying not to fly off into; a sure sign that I need to start blogging more regularly again. Until next time, my faithful followers, may the love of our Lord, Jesus Christ, bless you and keep you always.
